Confusing disease

Thank you for responding to my conversation and asking me to clarify a few things.

Do I have documented cancer?  Not yet.

Why remove all my organs if there is no confirmed cancer?  

I don't need the organs they are removing and my uterus, specifically, is producing hormones that could promote cancer growth. If the organs are cut into (biopsied) instead of removed, they could spread cancer around and leave a mess. So the surgeons will try to keep everything intact and remove entire organs. And lymph nodes. 

The "team" is fairly confident that things are happening, that are not good. Based on the evidence they have. 

Best case, the organs are all negative and I recover and go gardening. 

Second best case. The biopsies come back stage 1 or 2 and they flush my abdominal cavity, close me up and I am on a watch list.

Third best case- The biopsies show stage 3 or 4 cancer and I start some level of treatment. Probably chemo and radiation.

Worse case- They open me up, find that it is spread throughout, that the liver and lung and spine are already involved and I would have very few options. 

Hoping for the best case and that the pain caused last week was a gift from the cosmos to let me know, things are not okay, despite my clean bill of health just 2 months ago.  

I am not afraid, and have every confidence that the best path for me will emerge in the coming days.  

I didn't hear from the surgical team today, that probably means a Monday surgery day. 

It is not a bad thing to have a day of rest, time to play Legos with Wes, and see Julia in her corduroy overalls. 

Thank you for all of your interest and questions. Sorry my writing is a bit, hit-and-miss, you can call and I will likely confuse you even more. It has been a crazy week. 

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