Farewell from the Journey in Silk Pajamas

 Some might call this journey, "Much about nothing", others might just describe it as "Over kill" but either way, I am feeling relieved, and a bit like you might feel after an awkward, hyped-up, debutant ball.  In the end, your dress is awkward and needs adjusting every few minutes, your hair doesn't look like you imagined, your date is a lousy dancer, and your feet hurt like heck. The really fun part is telling the awful story once it is all over. 

So went my Journey in Silk Pajamas. Lots of fan-fare and not much substance. Not that I am disappointed to be a normal healthy person. That is great, but did I really need an exploratory surgery and a 12 inch scar to establish that?  Did I need to go through days of intestinal blockage, followed by days on a soft diet, followed by the colonoscopy prep in order to determine that there is nothing there.  I feel a bit beaten up, but glad I didn't die in the process of determining that I was okay. 

The para gang-glioma, is removed and that is the only thing that may have become a problem some day. 

My stomach and colon are fine, I need my next colonoscopy in 10 years, unless I am over 75. So I will hopefully never do that prep again. 

So we are done. I know many of you have been afraid my journey would end differently, as did I. And many of you sent such lovely sentiments that I want to hold on to forever. Thank you for that. 

But this will be my last post. This journey is over. I still love my silk pajamas and they still feel great over my tender stitches. And I have no regrets about bringing you along on my journey. It has given me a place to put my thoughts and fears and that is something that I will hold dear. You have been my safety net and my encouragement. 

I am glad the end is a happy one. Thank you for coming along for the ride. 

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